I, just wanna stop feeling anything. Never had friends but I could live with that, but I just want someone to embrace, someone that feels something for me, even if doesn’t last. Better than 0 for the rest of my life. This situation is slowly killing me.
The only thing that gives me some relief is gaming… (I read the post of like a week ago here that several dudes met their partner thanks to a videogame and I felt even sadder, why that wasn’t me? I’ve been gaming for 30 years now).
Friends also help with loneliness.
Don’t skip friends. Romantic relationships are friendships+ with the difficulty level dialed up by x10. If someone can’t build and keep friends, a romantic relationship is likely to be bad and will fix nothing.
If you literally just want a hug and don’t currently have someone in your life to do that with, paying is an option. Friends can also give hugs.