I, just wanna stop feeling anything. Never had friends but I could live with that, but I just want someone to embrace, someone that feels something for me, even if doesn’t last. Better than 0 for the rest of my life. This situation is slowly killing me.
The only thing that gives me some relief is gaming… (I read the post of like a week ago here that several dudes met their partner thanks to a videogame and I felt even sadder, why that wasn’t me? I’ve been gaming for 30 years now).
Since your hobby is gaming have you tried LAN events? If there are some you can go to, even afford to fly to, you can make friends IRL and keep them when you go back home. You know you have one thing in common with your potential new friends!
Or join Discord groups! Join more social games like MMORPGs? I don’t game anymore but think of my gaming friends fondly as I got to know many over the years and find out things about them in and out of games :)
There’s none. Majority of adults here don’t play videogames. And discord is a mess, too complicated to use and you need to already to know people to make it work, also nobody here use it. People here only use Instagram or WhatsApp and I don’t see the point of following people at the other side of the world