I haven’t really fallen in love since I was young, but I guess it has multiple stages; after the initial physical attraction it just kind of feels like your entire perspective shifts and this person becomes a central focus of your life, you think about them a lot and are always looking for oportunities to be close to them, talk, share experiences and “catch eachother up” on previous life experiences that have shaped you as a person. You want to understand what makes them who they are and want them to understand how you tick.

The longer you’re in love with someone in often manifests as worry for them, which I think is common for all types of love. You just carry this awareness of them and their well-being with you all the time and worry for them the same way you might worry about your own future and well-being.

You get so familiar with eachother over time that they change who you are and vice versa, kind of like two trees growing together and where they meet it’s difficult to tell who ends where. I think this is kind of that sense of “oneness” people talk about. It’s a comforting feeling, but also is the hardest part to deal with when a relationship ends.

I only had one person that I’d say I was ever really in love with, I’ve had romantic relationships with people I care for deeply but there’s only one person whoever really got stuck in my heart in a permanent way that I’ll for certain just carry them around as part of myself until I die. It’s nice in a way to have that kind of a connection with anyone, but quite painful as well. One way or another I think most of ys end up in a state of longing, that’s just part of the human experience.

What makes you believe you won’t ever experience romantic love?