trying to stop being so thin skinned:
I had an online discussion with a random, we had a short but intense exchange until he replied and then blocked me, robbing me of a chance to reply.
I feel hurt because I couldn’t reply. To me that means he won. I feel insulted and angry.
Yes, this is something I should talk to about with a shrink, but the therapist I contacted hasn’t replied yet, so I might have to start looking for a new one if this one ain’t reliable.
In the meantime I turn to the second best thing I can think of: this channel.
I can try to rationalize it: I cannot change it, I’m letting that guy live free in my mind, letting it go is the rational thing to do.
Except that here I’m not being rational, but emotional and I don’t know why this triggers me so much.
Not getting the last word triggers me. How would you solve this?
Can you forgive yourself for feeling like he won? What sort of compassion can you feel for yourself in this situation? What kind of compassion can you feel for the person who blocked you?
I would go for a run or sit and journal a bit. Write or think out exactly what happened. Then I’d let myself know that it’s okay to be feeling this way. Now this is a chance to better myself, because i want to try to be better than this. I then try to widen my context. It’s not just me, it’s not just me and this rando on the net. This is a small part of all of humanity right now, and it’s time to make humanity better, even it’s in a small way that only matters to me. Maybe next time I can try to make it better for more than just me.