The vast majority of flashlights just go to your last setting with one click, what flashlights are you using that this is an issue?

100% this. OP try to tense your stomach while you inhale to force air into your chest instead. I had the same issue when I stopped smoking for a while.

“this vexes me”

It is not, sadly. But yes, still wholesome

Try your shot at equally as ugly other people, it’s a numbers game

There’s plenty of ugly people out here fuckin, either groom yourself well and work on your personality or lower your standards.

Same, has only ever been first person