I met a few good friends by joining a local, free run club in the area. We were all the slow people at the back 😂
I moved and the friendships didn’t last, but I think that’s just part of life. The older I get, the more stars need to align to maintain relationships.
There are a lot of potential reasons, and the fact that you’re curious is commendable.
While there’s no way for a stranger on the Internet to know, anecdotally I tend to push people away for a variety of reasons… maybe you’ll relate to some of them:
I really enjoy being alone
Caring about other people is a lot of work
If someone gets to know all of my quirks, they might reject me
I don’t like feeling vulnerable
I’m worried I’ll be jealous
I’m sure there are other reasons, but that’s triggered my self-loathing enough for one night.