Erasmus?

Came here to say this. Glad you saved me the time to type it out.

Hmm but now I typed a longer response. Damnit.

Dota.

I was literally 1 MMR after starting. At my peak I was slightly above the average player. Now I am average. Years later.

I am generally pretty good with the games I invest time into. Not this one.

I know of another where the names are hard rock and metal bands like ACDC.

Of course.

Assuming male, because it’s the internet afterall, you don’t need to stop walking to pee. Just saying.

Now multiply this by 3 and you will understand what he meant.

Yes.

In that case, she might sound like a person you could discuss this side of yourself and maybe get some help or perspective from. You will lose the romantic outlook, most likely (or at least should, if you honesty want to understand and improve yourself) but then again that’s probably for the best.

You can’t really form a proper relationship with someone so far away that you have never met. You are probably interested in her because at the moment she is your only available avenue. Not because she is the one for you.

So in my opinion, if you trust her and can discuss anything with her, try to discuss your romantic situation with her, ask her to use her to understand yourself, then do the harder step and move to try to form healthy IRL relationships with people, eventually naturally leading to a romantic relationship. Not out of desperation, but out of real interest.

It seems hard because you need to change meaningful things about yourself and your mentality. But I would say it is more scary than hard. You need to get out of your current comfort zone, but you don’t need to do actually hard things.

It will take time. But if you can make it, it will last. I have been in kinda similar situation in the past, but am now miles ahead from where I was standing and very happy.

Why are you calling the children ‘shitty’?

You obviously are not responsible for paying for your electricity eh. That’s not how it works.

To be honest this looks like store bought and not homemade. But I could be wrong.

Stock up on crypto memes.

Yeah. I prefer the schoolgirl used panties or ass juice ones myself.

A hot springs open room in a Japanese Ryokan near Kyoto, with a very wide barrel that I would lay with my back turned into a small hot water waterfall.

Well, technically no one is stopping you.

But I can’t be at a treadmill and take a dump at the same time. Actually I could, but I don’t want to.

Muv Luv is a better trilogy in that regard.

Curious why you don’t just ask your wife.

That’s what I hate the most.