The “reaching for something” is something I’m gonna do. I’ve had so few lucid dreams, two or three, and they ended after I realized that I was dreaming… After trying to stabilize the dream I don’t know why but I kept doing “random and uncontrolled” stuff.
Do you also say something when reaching out for a weapon?
I once was stuck in a loop… for an entire year. It felt like a year too and waking up was something that made me happy.