I aim to be more human. I aim to be less apathetic as a human. Apathy grows, like a tree, and I aim to prune my own.

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Cake day: June 23rd, 2023

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  • Haha this reminds me of a sale sign I saw recently on a visit. It didn’t say garage sale, or yard sale, or rummage sale, nor estate sale.

    No, it said EMIR SALE with an arrow, and zero other information.

    What the fuck does that mean??? I asked my friend who lived there and she also didn’t know. I figured someone was selling something specific, called emir. Whatever that might be; I’m pretty out of the loop.

    Turns out it’s a street name. I guess they are selling the whole street?



  • All cats.

    If it was my old boy, omg I’d love to have 100 versions of him, but the test would be if I sat down, the cat immediately on my lap is probably him, but to be sure I’d bring in some random stranger and sit them down and see if the same cat goes to them immediately. He was the absolute friendliest cat on the face of the earth, even thought the mailman was there for him!

    As for the girl I had at the same time, I’d put down wet food aplenty, and then put a pizza box in the very middle of the table with ham in it and see which one could, and wanted to, get it open. She fucking loved pork for whatever reason, and she was smart enough to understand that knocking a food box off the table would get it open very nicely. I lost a lot of leftovers to that bitch.

    My current cats… they would yell at me and disappear. So no idea. I’d probably put my quail cage in the room and see which ones don’t give a shit about the birds. That’s probably a good clue. Tho the fact that they would be fighting everyone would also be a good clue, that would not be a happy time. They can’t even stand small wildlife by the door…



  • Since nobody else seems inclined to share the deep darks of their life, I will.

    Due to a childhood of neglect, I tend to ruin baby animals left in my care. Not because I want to, but because I’m not nurturing at all. Not even a slight tiny bit. I keep them alive and unharmed just fine, that I can do. But that’s about all I’ve got.

    I’ve had a few cats that I’ve acquired as kittens and by the time they hit adulthood they hate everything. The first time I didn’t realize it was me, and I had a cranky bitch who hated everyone and everything but me… for 16 years… after the last time I know it must be me. Because cats from the same litter went to my partner and theirs are super nice and friendly, and mine… one gets so upset seeing other strange cats that she misplaces her aggression and goes after her sister until her sister pees herself running away. It fucking sucks, and I wish I was better for them.

    The dog I got as a puppy was poorly socialized, as well, but I wasn’t able to keep her past the first year (pitbull in an apartment, but she was just friendly as hell, not mean or aggressive)

    My quail were about ready to see me as mama, same with the chickens, even nestling in my hands to fall asleep, and now they don’t like me… (that one is probably a reach-down problem, they like me a lot better when I reach in at them instead of down from above, but still)

    So except where necessary, like farm animals, I avoid getting babies. I’m sterile for this reason as well. I don’t want to pass on my fucked up neglected childhood, even to animals.






  • Thanks for this!

    Well I spent the time between when I posted and when you replied looking into various things related to tor, legality, and snowflake more specifically, as well as a bit after your reply since you gave me a couple extra things to look into… (like if there’s a risk of running alongside self-host software like Plex and jellyfin, I didn’t find anything about it so I sort of assume it’s fine…?)…

    I didn’t see anything overly bad other than if you yourself use tor, maybe, so took the plunge and… have had a whole two connections already, so yay, I’m a snowflake!

    I feel slightly better about myself, like when I started using BOINC crowdsource computing for research in the early noughties. :)


  • I’m willing to do this but frankly tor intimidates me big time. I don’t know anything about it other than……. Yep that’s it.

    I read through the mastodon post, and the project page, and cumulatively I didn’t get any answers that, like, make me feel better.

    I assume this is a dark web node sort of thing? Is it safe for me to run the browser extension (idk shit about docker and don’t really want to learn rn), like I’m not putting a target on myself or anything? If yes to question 1, but no to question 2, what does put a target?






  • I’m a decade younger, but until about 5 years ago we could get a dozen large eggs for $0.99 (caged). Probably highly dependent upon the area (urban/rural, quality of surrounding land, overall cost of living in relation to wages, etc.).

    They are currently over $6/doz here. I’m not sure by how much as I haven’t bought since they were $2/doz., which has been years now.